Showing posts with label Peace. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Peace. Show all posts

Sunday, December 16, 2018

December Money Experiment, Season 1, Episode 1

"I'd like to propose a grocery budget of $200 a month." His tone is faith and resolve. After all, our oldest spent the last year traveling with a team of 21. They made the best of meager resources. They sacrificed, he says. And they learned to be creative. 

He's confident our team of six has seriously underestimated what we're capable of in the areas of meals, nutrition and budgets. No worries, he assures us, trust him and he'll show us what can be achieved.

"I second that." Our third born, all logic and data, says he's in. His frugality has paid him huge dividends. So he's backing the idea in wholehearted agreement. And he agrees with his oldest brother, that we've probably been overspending on groceries. 

Our second oldest listens from the sidelines. And our daughter? She looks on, both bemused and curious. Unaffected. 

The proposal came about during a team meeting. "Regarding finances, I'd like to renegotiate some terms." All eyes turned toward Ezekiel. He shared a few goals and then, Eli, (inspired by Ezekiel's ambition?), pitched his idea.  

How did LeRoy and I respond to this proposal? Well, I laughed as I retrieved the finance notebook. 

Tracking income and expenses -- to the penny, it's a hobby. Accounting for checks and balances.  Making financial strategies and predictions. Creating margin. Organizing outgo, crunching numbers, and moving us toward financial freedom is fun. Romantic, even. 

I casually flipped pages, reporting each month's numbers, each one hovering significantly above the new proposed amount. 

No matter. I smiled. "I'm in." 

LeRoy (very) reluctantly agreed. It's for a short time and we'll chock it up to an experiment, I told him. Who knows, I shrugged, maybe we'll discover something we wouldn't have otherwise. 

So here we are. I'm a little behind on the documentation of this experiment, but so far, so good. Each of us agreed to contribute $50 toward the grocery budget along with meal planning and preparation, with LeRoy and I taking the first week. 

ohmygosh. I love it! There's nothing quite like boundaries and limits to spark creativity. Each day I perused the contents of our refrigerator, freezer and pantry with the question, "What can I make with what we have on hand?" 

Pasta drizzled with olive oil and garlic. Cream of broccoli soup paired with garlic bread, a chicken casserole, breakfast burritos (made in an extra-large batch and frozen for quick lunches later). I regret that I didn't track the meals better, but the ratings were five out of five.

Ezekiel took the second week, slightly leaner, yet nonetheless delicious. A second round of breakfast burritos, (this time with sausage, less veggies), enchiladas, and tacos.

Heading into our third week of this experiment. Will keep you posted on the intrigue and suspense, the creativity and imagination sparked by this challenge.


Counting blessings...
(continued from this post)

297. Presence.

298. Moments.

299. Time.

300. Creativity.

301. The way Eli passionately suggested that our family shake things up, take more risks, make sacrifices and try new things. 

302. Being on a team of good sports who know how to both go for the win and still keep things lighthearted and fun.

Saturday, January 6, 2018

Recap of 2017 and An Idea

If you had to put a title on 2017, what might it be called? For me, I believe I'd call it Transition.

Germany rang in 2017 with the usual conviviality and merriment, fireworks on nearly every street and in the cobbled town squares. The carousing begins at midnight and carries into the wee hours of the morning.

Across Europe, the first day of the year begins with a day of rest. Businesses are closed, including grocery markets, making the next twenty-four hours conducive to contemplation and scheduling of the 364 days ahead.

For us, plans included a short visit back to the States sometime in the late summer or autumn. But that was eight or nine months away.

In the short-term, the coming months meant finishing the book I was writing, seeing many friends pack household goods and attending their "until later" parties as they moved to the next assignment, and preparing a two-week holiday with friends arriving in the springtime.

We did what we've always done. Settled into the new year, we carried on with work, education,  church activities and time with friends. Nothing happened too out of the ordinary except for the occasional cause for celebration like a friend's promotion at work. Or Ezekiel's 18th birthday on January 13th, celebrated on a men's ski trip in the Swiss Alps.

Yet, the environment at LeRoy's job grew increasingly difficult. Bureaucratic minutiae and poor management wore on him. And while his love for the actual work never waned, the thought of being surrounded by less than ideal attitudes and perspectives took their toll. Toward the end of January, he suggested we cancel our two-year extension and return to Spokane, Washington in six months.

So, maybe I'd title the year, Pivot. Over the next several weeks, the subject of moving filled the bulk of our dialogues. To be honest, I tried everything I could think of to try to change the situation. (Ha! In my book, Living Your Legacy, I talk about change. About the ability to accept what is while moving the story forward through skillful improvisation.) I didn't want to leave Germany and (selfishly) I thought there might be a solution that would allow us to stay for two more years. (I also wrote about how life is too short to stay stuck in a rut with no vision and little impact.)

Then one evening in February, LeRoy made a phone call to his friend, mentor, and previous boss at Fairchild Air Force Base in Spokane. And when he hung up, he turned to me and said, "We're canceling our extension and returning to Spokane this summer." And all the frustration and angst of the previous weeks and months dissolved into perfect peace.

The extension was canceled the next day. We'd fly out on August 20th.

Over the next four months, I finished my book, Living Your Legacy, we enjoyed exploring Europe with our friends, Larry and Sherry Templeton, and we said, "Until later," to many families. The movers arrived on a Monday morning in mid-July and we transitioned into temporary housing. (Over the course of the next three months, we'd live in six different places.)

A highlight in the middle of our move was our holiday to the Belgium countryside with our friends, the Johnson Family. Over a weekend that went way too fast, we stayed in a rustic French Gite just south of Dinant.

Exploration highlights comprised of a tour of the Citadel, beer tasting at the Maison Leffe, and kayaking on the River Meuse. Of course, there was the elegant and delicious Charcuterie Platter prepared by our friends, Warren and Jasmine, who paired our cuisine with a perfect French wine.

Then, a few weeks later, on Saturday afternoon, August 19th, we visited with friends-who-had-become-family one last time at Trattoria da Salvatore in Landstuhl. And at 3 o'clock the next morning, we left for the Frankfurt International Airport, arriving in Spokane, Washington that same afternoon.

That evening we had dinner with the Stone Family, and enjoyed a surprise visit from the Eva's. We spent the week "in-processing" which is military-speak for a small mountain of paperwork and checklists. LeRoy started work the following week. We searched for a place to live. Ezekiel searched for a job. Israel and I attended Women's Bible Study at Life Center.

Over the next few months, things fell into place. LeRoy thoroughly enjoys not only his work but the camaraderie and teamwork at Fairchild. We rented a townhouse on the outskirts of Spokane toward the airport and Airway Heights. Ezekiel got hired at the Starbucks only a seven-minute walk from our home.

Outwardly, it looks as though, for the most part, we've picked up where we left off. But things are different.

*~*~*~*~*

The last three years brimmed with the richness of relationships. (That's not the part that's different. We've experienced that everywhere we've lived.) :)  But the friends we met while living in Ramstein, Germany, are dreamers. They're action-takers who chase after audacious goals with purpose and unwavering faith and hope. Their lifestyles demonstrate anything is possible. 

They dream outside the lines, intimately connected to the One Who plants the seeds of what's possible in their hearts. For three years, we lived alongside people who live large... in faith, love, hope... adventure. People who poured encouragement and optimism over everyone they encountered because they were always up to something. (So much so, that I'll have to save that for another post.) 

This isn't to say everything always went well. We held one another up and prayed each other through difficult marriage, health, and parenting seasons. But it was a steadfast and intense community. One couldn't be in their presence without having Christ's love and joy splashed onto them.

Which brings me to my flash of insight. 

There's so much talk in our world these days about how we can 3X, 10X, or 100X our focus and efforts. Sure, I track with what they're saying. I mean, we spent the last three years with folks who live 10X and 100X lives. But somewhere along the way, I grew weary and being all in has started to feel... intangible. Until now.

My business coach and mentor, Steve Roller, wrote something recently that stirred inspiration and restored my vision for what's possible. He wrote about how he doesn't set an alarm to wake up. He allows himself to awaken to ideas. 

It's the second time within the last five days that I've heard one of my mentors talk about this. Earlier in the week, I heard John Maxwell relate a similar story from his own life. 

How often I've woken in the middle of the night or in the early morning hours with ideas that could have produced fruit. However, I didn't so much as write them down and then when I finally woke up "for real"... they were gone. 

So, I'm excited to test this theory that we can multiply our efforts -- that we can 100X our lives? (That wasn't the way Steve Roller or John Maxwell put it. That's just my own mashing of two ideas together.) :)  That taking action on ideas -- or at least writing them down -- as they present themselves, might be an organic, rhythmic way to multiply the fruit in our lives. 

I'll keep you posted. 

*I'm curious, did you think of what you would title 2017? Hit reply to this email and let me know. I'd love to hear your title. 


Wednesday, November 16, 2011

The Last 24 Hours

"It's like you have traveler's guilt."  I let my sweet friend's observation settle over me.  Her assertion is warranted and I don't know how to reply.  Inside, my spirit is grieved... Have I acted ungrateful?  What about my sweet husband who always told me he wanted to make my dreams come true by taking me to see the world?  Does he know how thankful I am?  Ugh.  And I wonder for the jillioneth time, what's wrong with me?

I've heard it said that God stirs up a holy discontent.  An unsettling of the heart, heavy with the knowledge that there must be more to do than simply consume.  I still want to see the world.  But my heart is changed.  I want more.

 "Based upon what I believe, that doesn't make sense."  ~ Francis Chan in reference to living a life full of comfort, security and entertainment

My long suffering family, they listen for the trillionth time as I pour out my heart, struggling to articulate this heaviness.  It's LeRoy who announces where we'll begin.  The first country we pray for is Spain.  The next night, it's France.  After that, we lift up Italy.  And on it goes.  Together, we begin to pray for the whole world.  I am relieved.  We are doing something powerful to change the world.  

And this day.  This present day that I have to fully live, fully redeem the time, to make my words the Gospel message in the smallest, (and largest), of encouragements.  To make my deeds preach Salvation in small private victories.  Easier said than done.  It's the epic battle of the wills. 


The children get squirrely, (I'm not the only one engaged in an epic battle of wills...), and someone mentions a bike ride.  Fresh air + physical exertion = antidote to squirreliness.

Brilliance times four set out for a long ride in the forests and fields.  To seize the last of the afternoon sunshine while I stay back in the kitchen to make corn bread to go with dinner: tender beef n' bean stew.

After dinner dishes are cleaned and food put away, we gather in the 'library' for pajama church: a study on angels; and prayer: for each other and the country of Switzerland.  And what family time would be complete without a couple of rounds of Golf or a game of Risk?


This was my view of the sunrise this morning.  I first noticed it when I went to rouse my children and the church bells rung their deep, echoing 6:55 wake up call.  The window was cracked open in the boy's room causing me to shiver as I kissed their chilled foreheads.


To live this day.  Complete and content.  Fully satisfied in Him.  To engage intensely and passionately with the people in my life.  To take nothing for granted.  To love deeply... right where I'm at and if we're blessed with more travel opportunities, then to embrace the wild grace of it all.

Through the LORD’s mercies we are not consumed, Because His compassions fail not.  23. They are new every morning; Great is Your faithfulness.  ~ Lamentations 3:22 - 23

Gratitude:
106. New favorite tea, given to me as a gift from a dear friend: Bengal Spice Herbal Tea, Celestial Seasonings.

107. Israel's declaration, "Mama!  I'm becoming to fear over!" and her giggle when she realized how it came out in her excitement.  Her beautiful radiance when she calmly reiterates, "I'm overcoming fear."

108. Brisk autumn walks along paths filled with the schwush, schwush of piles of leaves.

109. Family picnic at the fort in the forest, complete with homemade hot chocolate in a thermos!

110. New favorite candy bar with five layers (five!) of yumminess: Hershey's Take 5.  And the way that it reminds me of favorite afternoons spent at Holly's house and how she'd make 7-layer desserts from the Costco-sized box!

111. That Take 5 candy bars aren't available here, except in October.  (They have about 1,000 ingredients!)

112. Surprise love notes from LeRoy.

113. The extravagant grace from friends who call spontaneously asking if they can come over to visit and "bring dessert, too."  And the love that filled all the spaces when she said, "I think there's someone here who likes chocolate and peanut butter," with a knowing smile because she's one of those people who pays particular attention to what people like and what blesses them.

114. Eli's smile as he holds up a cookie and tells her, "These are my favorite.  Thank you!"

115. A crazy-fun family photo shoot during which our incredible friend, (& Co.), took advantage of the fact that we're a bunch of goofballs and caught the essence of who we are in the process.

116. God's grace.

117. Eli's enthusiasm for adventuring on mountain bikes in the forest and the way he watches out for and is patient with his younger siblings.



Saturday, April 16, 2011

Zadar, Croatia -- Day 2

It seems that sleeping in was the prescribed modus operandi for this particular holiday as every day except one this family slept well into the late morning hours.  Eventually though...


...we made our way into the nearby village of Zadar -- a town over 3,000 years old, it is one of the oldest cities in Croatia.  We peeked into the famous St. Donat Church, built in the 9th century, stepped over (and jumped off of) Roman ruins...


...(or climbed inside)...


...meandered our way down to the waterfront...



...where we watched with awe and fascination the goings on of the underwater world -- a world we could see to the bottom of in spite of the depth of the water.  Our imaginations came up with entire stories for the numerous schools of fish down there.


Of course, there was an Olson Family school of fish -- at least the shadowy semblance of one.


And we were careful to mind all the rules...

Rule #341... If a large standing object exists which you can climb atop of, you are required to do so, with the intended goal of leaping off as far as you possibly can.


Rule #342... If a water levy exists, you must run out and explore to the end of it.  No exceptions.


Eventually we ran out of waterfront to meander along, so we followed the ancient fortress wall into the small harbor, circling back through ancient city gates, looking for proper lunch food... or ice cream -- whichever came first.




Crossing over a large pedestrian bridge led us to this Fast Food stand around the corner where the children and LeRoy ordered Sprites, pommes frites (french fries in German and, apparently, Croatian too?) and regular American cheeseburgers.  I ordered some funky orange drink with "9 vitamina" in it and a Mali Cevapi -- the Balkan specialty (to which LeRoy said that I actually ordered better than him this time.  It's usually him that orders better and it's me eating half his order!).


We arrived home to this scene!  So LeRoy took a late afternoon nap.  The children played in the water, skipped rocks... and entertained a dog that adopted them.  I took advantage of the peace, seizing the opportunity to soak up some Vitamin D, (just in case Vit. D wasn't part of the 9 vitamina in my drink earlier), and read a book.


Such peaceful, lazy, sunshiny days!  I had to keep reminding myself it was okay to simply BE!  It was wonderful being called every few seconds, "Mom!  Watch this one!" as the rock skipping competition revved up another notch.  To laugh with the children over the silly dog that refused to chase sticks but loved to retrieve and then chew on the rocks the children threw.  The dog they lovingly named "Jerry."  To admire cool rocks, sticks, and creatures found by my four treasure-hunters.


By the time LeRoy awoke from his nap and announced we were going to take a family walk to the Marina, we were ready.


The children tested each pier along the way. 




I love this sign, "I AM HERE."  As if boldly stating, "I am here.  In this moment.  Right now.  Fully present.  Fully alive.  PROFOUNDLY GRATEFUL!" 

Perhaps next time I make a toast I will clink my glass with yours and say, "TU SAM!"  (Croatian for "I am here!")




The sun was setting as we set out for home -- a different way than we traveled the first time, making for an adventure with only a bit of misdirection.



Still, we made it home in time to take in the evening's sunset and relish the cool evening breeze.  To lean into one another and be eternally grateful.

Wednesday, March 2, 2011

How To Jump

In my experience, there are two kinds of jumps.  (I'm positive there are more; but so far, I know two.)

The first one is the free-fall from some great height in which cables, buckles, straps, and chutes are checked pre-airborne.  Like the time I stood on the ledge of a cage that hung precariously from a crane.

The operators almost revoked my 'opportunity' to fall jump because I took so long, standing there, a perfect summer breeze on my face, the peaceful nighttime view overlooking the city of Spokane, Washington, my life literally flashing before me -- scenes that depicted I had lived a great life thus far... positive it was only going to get better... more beautiful, more romantic, more adventurous... that it would really stink if the bungee cord didn't do it's job for some reason.

I hesitated longer, almost changed my mind, remembered that I wouldn't get my lousy thirty dollars back... then leaned forward and let myself plunge into nothingness.  Headfirst.  And while watching the concrete rush up at my face I thought, bungee jumping is one of the more stupid things I've done in my life!  I can't believe I paid thirty dollars to do something this stupid!

Lesson learned: motivation is powerful.  And I am powerfully motivated by the investment I have in a particular endeavor. 

Fast forward 13 years, marriage, four children, and (some) growth in maturity.

I prefer the second kind of jump.  Like the time our family loaded bicycles and drove north of Spokane.  It was Father's Day and though the sun shone brightly in a near-cloudless sky, a cool breeze promised for a refreshing ride around one of the lakes.

After cycling for awhile we came to a quaint beach with a small dock where we stopped for a snack break.  We only meant to rest, drink some water, eat a little bite... after all, we were dressed for the slight cool in the air -- blue jeans, long-sleeved shirts.  But the children looked longingly at the water.  They always do.   I looked down at my Capris and got an idea.

The children noticed me taking my shoes and socks off.  "I didn't know we were going to go in the water, Mom!  I would've wore my swimming shorts!"  They had wandered several paces out on the dock.

"Sometimes," I smiled mischievously, jogging past them on the dock, "you don't have to be ready!  You just have to jump!"  I leaped off the end of the dock, pulling my knees up in an attempt to make a splash.  By the time I surfaced, all four children and husband were throwing off shoes, the boys removing t-shirts.  Jumping off a dock and playing in water is a perfect way to while away moments.

Eventually, we sat out in the sunshine to dry... and have that snack we'd anticipated. 

To soak in Grace.  Knowing the moment would be recounted for years to come.

And that's how I'm learning to live.  To invest myself in ways that stretch me out of my comfort zone, call me to the edge, motivate me to plunge into the ever-unfolding story.  To seize opportunities with enthusiasm, throwing my heart and soul into the project, wanting to make a splash.

I'm three days into this "detox."  Remember I said I don't really have a clear picture of what that looks like yet.  But I'm so excited!  So far, I'm pursuing my lifelong dream to be a morning person.  And, so far, it's fantastic! 

There's other pursuits.  I'll keep sharing what I'm learning on this journey.  Our family finished reading Culture of Honor by Danny Silk last night.  We discussed upcoming Lent and fasting.  I made a suggestion and everyone loved it so much that they wanted to start right away...

Grateful.  So grateful!  For...
15. early morning workouts
16. husband who exercises with me
17. Holy Spirit's revelations filled with grace and love that knows no bounds
18. victory in Jesus, my Savior forever
19. coffee with a friend who spontaneously joins me when I realize I'm running late for the first day of nutrition class
20. sunshine splashed generously across table with math and spelling books laid wide
21. encouraging e-mails in inbox, waiting in bold to be read and re-read, tucked in heart's file for those moments when the race is uphill
22. boy who folds laundry "just so" and lays piles at the bottom of each person's bed
23. the wherewithal to hold my tongue when son squirmed, did gymnastics from dining room table bench, crawled underneath said table, stalled forever long on his math... only to emerge suddenly with, "Oh!  I got it!" as he quickly and intently scrawled the answer to the next problem (perhaps next time I'm facing a perplexing problem I might try this approach?)

Tuesday, August 24, 2010

Home...

Today we went to Eli's orthodontist appointment in Speicher. Afterwards, we drove down the street intent on eating an early lunch at City Grill. When we found it wasn't open for another half hour, we meandered over to the Eis Cafe -- Dolomiti -- for some gelato, (Italian ice cream) where we indulged in dessert first.

When we finished our dessert, we returned to City Grill and ordered (in German because Eli challenged us all to do so... Danke, Eli!), Jamaican Pizza, a Döner Kebap, Türkische Pizza, and Pömmes Frites. The children and I sat and visited, (they were in an especially enjoyable conversational mood), reminisced, giggled together, and when the server brought out our order I said, "Danke..." and wanted to add, "very much." But all that came to mind was, "Zikomo kwam biri." (Chichewa language in Malawi, Africa. Isaiah laughed at me, "Where do you think you are?")

As we sat eating our fare, we chatted about the climate, landscape and culture in Wyoming, USA. About Eli's dream to someday own a ranch with unlimited prairie to roam. And we all imagined with him the dreaminess of his idea.

And I had to smile. I am at home -- in Deutchland, Malawi, and Wyoming.

Thursday, June 10, 2010

Selah

Selah. Pause. The heady rush of reggae rhythms, Chichewa (the native language), laughter. The smell of trash as a man pushes a wheelbarrow past and then the dusty aroma of legumes, gourds, the oily odor of a pot of potatoes frying. Stimuli in the most beautiful, most holistic sense. People. Stories. Everything slows to slow motion.



The Trading Center is busy. I want to stay long. I want to watch. I want to paint the story unfolding all around me.

We fill our bags with tomatoes, carrots, onions, green beans, and bananas. Lots and lots of bananas. The plan is to take this with us to Dzuwa, the village where we'll stay with Ronald and Ulemu. I pass a young girl carrying a baby on her back and a bucket of potatoes on her head. A smile and request to take her picture. She smiles back and nods. Selah. Zikomo (thank you).

The evenings are spent working together to make dinner. Everyone pitches in. We work by candlelight as night grows dark.

Funa amazes us over and over. I think we're pampered and spoiled out here in the Deep Village, almost 3 hours out into the African Bush, in the middle of nowhere... because Funa takes care of us. Her food is delicious, creative, and satisfying. I think I could live here for good... if Funa, Ulemu, and the other women will teach me how. I am enraptured by the rhythm of the day. Each hour has its own task. It is consistent. Focused.


Keep the coals hot to cook the stew and later the water for a 'shower.'


Someone carries the bucket to catch water poured over hands before we eat.


We pray and my stomach growls softly as I add my own silent word of deep gratitude.


Later, hot water is poured into the wash basin and a 'pour pitcher' is offered for a shower. The day's dust and sweat splash onto concrete slab, soapy scent left on skin instead.


And each task, each moment, it's very own rhythmic Selah.

This African sky. These stars. So many stars. Whole galaxies. An entire universe so close I can almost touch it. This Creator Who knows every star by name. Who knows every thought, every care, every burden... each beat of my heart. Indescribable. I think God loves me most.


To gaze up into the starry host. Selah.

To press garlic, spicy fragrance mingling with evening's warmth and stew's steam. Selah.

Morning chores. Carry water from well to house. Wash laundry, drawing water from a well, sloshing elbow-deep in bucket of suds, rubbing each stain, knuckles against knuckles. Toss water and draw clean rinse water. Hang on line, African sunshine saturates laundry mm-mmm fresh. Wash, dry, and put away dishes. Sweep. Start fire to prepare lunch. Of course, all these chores are after getting up at 3 or 4 o'clock in the morning to work in the fields. Each task done within the rhythm of the day. No 'to-do list'. No frenzied schedules. It's all within the context of daily, hourly... life. Selah.

And always my children are surrounded by many, many children from the village. I am overwhelmed because I'm not the creative, crafty, "VBS" kind of gal. And yet, my children rise to the occasion, teaching them game after game. Tic-tac-toe in the dirt with a stick. Tag. Hopscotch. My children take charge while I stand back, admiring the way they connect with these children. Israel introduces me to her "best friends" -- a large group of girls, their smiles transcending all language barriers. She runs off into the sunshine with them, each of her hands holding the hand of a new best friend. Selah.

The teachers give us a tour of the school, the classrooms divided up into various concrete buildings. Each one filled with beautiful children who greet us with their heavenly accapella song. The rhythm of this delicious culture filling the space all round. Filling spaces in my heart.

Beautiful, strong Ulemu. Strong in spirit. Her quiet, humble strength, her moment by moment living by conviction. Her heart for these people. She is a hero.


The smile that remains involuntarily steady on my lips, a constant on this African adventure.

The church building in the village with its benches of brick and concrete. This space that yields to cultural rhythms... the men entering and sitting on one side first while the women wait together outside. Once the men are seated us women enter from the back and take our seats on the other side. These quiet gestures of respect and honor.

Our new friend, Ronald -- our hero, the Village Chief, and LeRoy. The, "Will you come back and teach us some more about marriage? About how to honor one another? About how to communicate better?" The humility that comes from working out of our weakness, falling headlong into His grace, knowing He takes our messes and makes beautiful mosaics that tell a story. The gift of the offer, "We'll build you a hut if you come live here in our village with us." And I find myself wanting to stay forever because I'm suddenly overwhelmed by the realization that it's not so much what I might teach as the wealth of wisdom I need to learn from them.

And all the while, as LeRoy and I are inside the church with the adults, our children are left alone with the village children. And I don't think about it once the entire time. Until we're finished and the adults are singing a hymn which draws a crowd of young faces to the doorways and the windows. Then I wonder. How did my children fare for the last two hours? And then I find that my children taught them how to play four-square, kick ball, and dodge ball. I'm overcome. In way over my head, unable to "set the scene" or control how it will all go, my children are brilliant. Heroically, enthusiastically, they've tumbled into the same Grace, playfully seizing the moment. And I'm humbled all over again. Selah.

Willing to serve in whatever way the moment requires, my children rise to the occasion over and over in a hundred different ways. I notice the lack of complaints or whining. Each job, from holding a baby to washing dishes to cutting vegetables to carrying water... carries with it a child with an eager heart, a cheerful countenance, an attitude of gratitude. (And I wonder how I can make these attitudes permanent... how I can transfer these hearts into the everyday "normal" lives back home. How to live out this Selah in the everyday -- even the monotonous -- moments.)

"Before you leave, may we have a picture taken with you?"

To spend late afternoons preparing food, kicking a ball around, talking and sharing stories. To end our stay, begin the week bathed in intercessory prayer. Selah.


To arrive back in Dzuwa later that afternoon to find that Funa has ingeniously found a way to bake banana bread over a fire! Funa! You're amazing! You spoil us! We enjoy still-warm banana "cake" with our dinner. Selah.

Ronald brings us home the back way -- the long way. The men and boys ride on the back of the flatbed truck. We get the off-roading adventure of a lifetime. I am blessed beyond words because of Ronald's thoughtfulness, his attentiveness to my mama heart and the fears I admitted regarding the main roads. I would have been at peace whatever way we traveled home. But Ronald is like that... generous, kind, accomodating. I am honored.


We arrive back at the African Bible College refreshed, perspectives changed, hearts enlarged. For me, it all went by too quickly. Isn't that funny? Even the lifestyle filled with pauses, the long lingering tasks and conversations and quiet moments basking in sunshine, walking dusty roads hand in hand with children, gazing into an endless sky filled with stars... I want to linger longer. But LeRoy says four days was perfect. He just laughs when reminded about the house they'll build for us if we move to the Bush. smile.


Eli says five or six days would be good. "My stomach would have to adjust."


Israel says, "I'm going to live there when I grow up and travel all around to all the villages and learn their language and teach at the schools."


Ezekiel says, "I think 10 days would have been good."


Isaiah tells me, "Maybe six days..."
smile.


These friendships. So easy. So much grace. So unconditional. Filled to overflowing with encouragement. Selah.
We are abundantly blessed. We are forever grateful to Amy and Bob for making arrangements and to Ronald and Ulemu for hosting us out in the Deep Village. Spending time with the people there has changed, enriched, and inspired us. Zikomo kwam biri. (Thank you so much!)

Saturday, April 24, 2010

Ratios

So, let's talk ratios. We got the special treat of visiting the teachers and the primary school while in the village of Dzuwa (pronounced zoo-wah). I have an incredible respect for teachers in the first place... in my mind they're movie stars, (and really deserve movie-star incomes), but my admiration went to another level as I asked questions and listened to these teachers share their everyday stories. They gave us a full tour, taking us to each class, welcoming us with songs -- acapella that rival the Philharmonic Orchestra and Choir.


9 Teachers. Nine. (For eight grades.)

829 Students. Eight-hundred-and-twenty-nine.

183 First and Second Graders in a combined classroom. One Teacher. 183 : 1

Third Grade was a little better: 108 : 1

The class sizes got smaller as the grade level went up... by the time we got to the Eighth Grade, the class was quite small, only about 45 students and one teacher.

In the first/second grade class the seating was no problem at all... one large room with corrugated metal roof over concrete walls and floor, rectangle cutouts for windows -- for letting in light -- children clad in tattered, dirty blue uniforms, simply sitting on the floor facing a large blackboard on the front wall. Simple. No chairs. No desks. No art hanging on the walls. No ABC's, each letter neatly touching the top line and the bottom line along the top of the blackboard. Just a barely lit, concrete room filled with beautiful, happy, smiling children... with the most lovely voices this side of heaven. And my heart swelling. Overcome. By the mere enormity of... everything. amazingness.

One heart. And all these Promises. Possibilities. "Bundles of Potentiality". 1 : ?

The third grade class had students scrunched three and four into desks built for two. This way they are able to share the scant amount of notebooks and books available. And no one will be left standing. Yet, still, it is a simple room filled with students who mostly learn from the teacher and what he writes on the blackboard up front. No experimental plants growing in styrofoam cups along the windowsill. No "class pet" lizards or snakes or bunny rabbits. A simple room bursting with dreams and Potential.

Yet, most of these students drop out along the way. While Primary School is free, Secondary School (starting in 9th Grade), is paid for by the parents... and most parents cannot afford school fees. The children are bright. I asked them their favorite subjects and in almost every class they unanimously said Math. Ah! I instantly pictured future scientists, engineers, biologists, doctors... It was the adults who later explained Malawi's reality to me. A reality far different than where I come from -- the Land of Opportunity.

It's not overwhelming. Or hopeless. At least, not once I looked into one child's precious eyes. Just one at a time. And then I saw what Compassion International and World Vision and so many others see. Priceless treasures, one at a time.

These teachers, giving hope. Teaching knowledge. Who knows what the return on their investment will be? That is a possibility that overwhelms me. One World Vision sponsor investing in a child, a well for a village, a clinic. Overwhelming. One person -- or a family -- coming to teach at African Bible College, work in a clinic, love on orphans, help in a village. Completely overwhelming.

One person loving the next person who crosses their path. Going out of my way to love my neighbor across the street. Taking dinner to a sick acquaintance. Cleaning the bathroom (my least favorite chore in all the world). Listening -- really listening -- to the ideas, inspirations, everyday la-la-la's of my children. Living, serving, all out, right where I'm at.

Eternal investments : Kingdom treasures

That is an overwhelming ratio.

Monday, April 12, 2010

Question...

You know those moments when your heart beats crazy? Those moments when you can feel your blood coursing through your veins? When you feel you're going to burst?

And all you can whisper is, "I was made for this."


Praise: Thank you for praying for us! Especially for LeRoy as his stomach ickiness only lasted a day.


**Yesterday we returned from the deep village of Dzuwa. We visited with Bob and Amy and then went to help feed the babies at the nearby orphanage. Oh my! Every experience is big. There are no small moments. Today we go visit the tailor who will make traditional African shirts for the boys. And then we go love babies at the orphanage again. My heart is so full... I hardly know where to begin to describe these moments.

Tuesday, March 30, 2010

Wake

"You're leaving a wake, Zae." He smiles contemplatively.



"Hopefully a good one." It's my turn to smile.



A couple of months ago, this same boy came to me at bedtime, his eyes wet as he asked me, "Mom, do you think I lived today as though it were my last?"



This boy who we endearingly call Pastor Zae and Bear (in reference to Bear Grylls) because he's a mix of both passionately-wanting-to-know-Truth while embracing wildly dangerous adventures. His faith is reckless. He tells me he wants to be like King David, "A man after God's own heart." His gaze is long, sign that he's thinking out loud more than making casual conversation.

Today we finalize packing details as we prepare to visit our friends, the Stauffacher Family, in Malawi, Africa. Israel talks constantly about the children there. Subjects meander from adoption to "I'm going to build an orphanage," to playing with all her "new friends in the village." The enthusiasm in her wake is contagious.

We're praying that our hearts will be tender, open... ready to receive whatever God reveals to us along the journey. We're asking Him to increase our faith. That His Love -- that sacrificial Cross-Kind-of-Love... and Hope -- will be reflected in our wake. What fun that we begin this Africa Adventure on Easter Day!


I love the recklessness of faith. First you leap, and then you grow wings.
--William Sloane Coffin

Sunday, February 7, 2010

Live...

Superbowl, 2010. The game started at 12:30 our time. It's now 3:41 in the morning and they're in the final quarter of the game.

As you know, we don't have television at our house (...by choice) and so we're staying on Base tonight in one of their TLF (temporary living facility) rooms.
We ate pizza for dinner and all manner of fattening munchies (...I remained "on top of my game" regarding this health and fitness project, though).
We thought it best to find a place where we could plant ourselves for the night so that masses of melted cuteness could stay put when eyelids grew too heavy to keep open.
Game's over... everyone's asleep. I took Tylenol Congestion & Pain for this full-on head and chest cold... counting on sleeping in with the rest of the clan.

In the words of Israel tonight, "Oh man! Another day that is the best day ever!!" (In case I don't get to it later, yesterday we went to Eli's basketball game in Baumholder then ate lunch at the Base in Ramstein followed by a couple of hours of swimming in their new Aquatic Center -- while I went running on the treadmill at the nearby fitness center. All that made for a full day. A "best day ever!"

Love you all. Blessings.